Well it is December and I know I haven't made an entry in along time but I felt Impeled to like a sudden urge to after i read Sarah Reece's Entry on December 6th well here it goes I have a girlfriend Melissa we have been going out for 6 months and i love every minute of it even the fights because i know everyone fights and fights make a relationship stronger but that is besides the point the point is i love her. Anywho i am listening to AFI right now and i feel that, that is also inspireing me to write right now because it is almost winter and chirstmas is comeing soon and well this time a year i think always gets people thinking about how much they care about someone to know weather or not they need to buy someone a gift. and lucky for me i just got a job and my first day is on monday so now maybe i will have some money so i can buy my family and melissa and chirstmas gift. now everyday it is colder then a witches tit and well that is A ok with me because i love cold weather i love riding in the car with melissa with the windows down smoking ciggarettes listening to music laughing having fun talking about were we are going to be years from now morning or afternoon those moments are the moments i live for and i am so luckey they happen everyday. but school i could live with out it i feel no matter how hard i try i cant pass all my classes at the same time that is probly on the account of i ahte homework and i dont ever feel like doing it so i dont untill the last minute but lately my class are so boring i actually used to have fun in classes but now i sit next to the windows looking out them drifting off in to another world out of school doing just about what ever i want to do or i lay my head down in class and close my eyes and sleep dreaming about what else i could be doing hmm, i wonder what that mean? even when i take my medication i still have trouble concentraiting, maybe it is a sign saying that i dont know need school anymore but america has it now that you have to go to school or you will end up on a street corners with a piece of cardboard well that is life i guess and i guess i jsut have to tuffin up and get over it because school isn't going anywhere and apparently neighter am i if i dont start doing better well i am tired and i am going to bed
I love melissa
-Joel
Drops of beer falls
from me trying
to get over you
(x2)
With every sip I take
I'll hold you
in memory
Wasted is a word that
defind what I am
and how I feel
(x2)
With every sip I take
I'll hold you
in memory
You must not know
how much you mean
to me so to take the pain
I have to be gone
in more ways then one
I have to be gone
I have to be gone
IN MORE WAYS
THEN ONE!!!
What you did to me
(Intro)
This song is for you
You know who you are
I’m tired of crying silent tears over you
So now I am going to tell everyone
Just what u did to me!
You took my heart and gave it back to me
I don’t know how you could
After all I sacrificed for you
(Chorus) x2
I have come to realize that you were a faze
Just a faze
And I was just your 7 month fix
Just a fix
But now I think I gave you what you really wanted
And that is to end the relationship we had
I hope you’re happy
Because that is all I ever wanted for you
Do you get it got it GOOD
(Chorus) x2
I have come to realize that you were a faze
Just a faze
And I was just your 7 month fix
Just a fix
No longer will I burden you with a simple I love you
So here it is my final good bye
No longer will I burden you
So here are my final words to you
GOOD BYE FOREVER
writen by: Joel Lomax
i pull up my sleeves they look down at my arms not knowing that they are actually looking at the story of my life that with holds all of my divulgences.
but when i look at my arms nostalgia hits and i feel that is it time to quit.
because i dont want to remember the days when i was alive but i felt dead inside.
and it isjust because you showed no love and hate on us and fucked our trust.
but now we stand alone and put our hands in the air and scream FUCK THE WORLD!
I am not here to attack or make you kids panic i just think it is tragic how these kids have it.
i hate to see that kids on there own from a broken home and everyody just acts like it dont mean shit.
i have been used and abused and it is all from you.
but your tears are dried up now and you lay to rest with out a sound now my fears are over.
I have wandered the streets so aimlessly.
I fall in love and get messed-up on drugs.
I hate that kids are put down painlessly.
I walk around and watch as the world shrugs.
And people tell you, you dye your hair and.
Wear tight pants that doesn't mean you can't scream.
Or have a choice tou have a voice so stand-
up if no one is listening and SCREM!
Well have friends but we stand alone.
It is tragic the way these kids have it.
Now youare runnning from a broken home.
Nostalgia hits and it's time to quit
Love and hate burns me away now alone.
Doesn't all of this hit so close to home.
Ya mon i know it sux it is for school so i dont care o well I am out peace
-Joel
